Dear life. Tonight i do something really bad, i letdown my friend that need my help, instead helping her i give her another fucking problem. oh fuck, i hate myself. i format all data in her laptop, i fuckin erased her entire history of life in that laptop. fuck. i should know this, everytime i try to help people, i just get another problem. i just sucks in life and making friends. oh god, i do always come to you, just when i get down and forget you when i'm on the top, i shamed of myself and yeah maybe this is my karma. and i should face it. fuucck, i'm so sorry ;( i'm so stupid. i'm starting like this friendship and i just ruined it. again and fuckin again. i'm so desperate right now, and i could do something reckless, but i suddenly remember my family. :'( MOM, why i should the one who born, not others :(